some days i feel like a robot. today is one of those days. i wish i meant a robot that was interesting and could do all these extraordinary things but no. i mean a robot that isn’t capable of emotion and is just going through the motions.
this feeling is something i have become really familiar with. but calling it a feeling is almost ironic since i just feel numb during these moments. it’s been a while since i’ve seriously sunk deep into this depressing state and yet it’s something that hasn’t left me.
there isn’t any set reason as to why i feel this way so when someone asks, “what’s wrong?” i get frustrated because i can’t give a solid answer. in these times is where i start to shut people out and i’m hoping that those around me try to understand that i just need some time. time to myself, time to just take a break and breathe, and time to reflect. who knows if this is something that will be a distant memory years from now? months? or days? this is something i’ll work on and writing things out is definitely a step towards what I want for myself. happiness.